"What are your plans for the New Year?" This is a common question, but for someone over seventy years old suffering from a chronic illness, it's not an easy question to answer. It's not that I don't believe in plans, it's just that I've experienced too many unexpected things, making it difficult to make plans now. I just want to live each day well, in the presence of the Lord.
Reflecting on God's love, grace, mercy, and faithfulness, I plan to begin a new way of life. I pray that in the new year, I will not be defined by my physical ailments, but by the sweetness of God's Holy Spirit. My Heavenly Father loves me so much that He sent His only begotten Son, Jesus Christ, to save me! Please allow me to share with You the comfort, joy, and hope that God has given me in the new year.
Comforted by God who Sustains
God has said, "Even to your old age and gray hairs I am He, I am He who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you." (Isaiah 46:4)
After retiring and moving, I suddenly fell ill and remained sick for almost three years, a period that shocked and disheartened me. However, what I have learned from this experience is that I no longer need to "gather" my strength; now, it is only God who sustains me. I have accepted God's sovereignty and seen His goodness and love in my situation. I pray that in the new year, we can all draw closer to our Lord and rely on Him completely in all things, big and small.
Joyful as a Child of God
One day, instead of asking me to watch videos, play games, or tell stories as usual, my six-year-old granddaughter asked, "NaiNai, may I read to you?" I thought I misheard, because not long ago she had said she couldn't read and always needed me to read to her. "You want to read to me, right?" "Yes, because I've never read to you before." I was naturally very happy to hear this, because she had only been in first grade for a few months!
Although I often teach others that "being" is more important than "doing," I myself am still unconsciously focusing on work. I am grateful that I can continue writing even when my efficiency is extremely low, and I thank the readers who have written to encourage me to share my testimonies. Although I don't have the energy to devote to my family, my value lies in companionship and listening, not in efficiency of work. I pray that God will make joy the guiding principle of my life; I pray that the Lord Jesus will help you and me remember that Christian joy is related to "whom we belong to," not to what we do.
Hopeful with Inner Renewal
The Bible delivers a powerful declaration: "Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day." (2 Corinthians 4:16). To my surprise, my heart and mind have undergone many changes in the past few years. I have gained a deeper understanding and closer relationship with God, others, and myself.
I pray that the new year will bring about an inside out "new creation" who is living "in Christ" at all times. Regardless of physical condition, may we possess spiritual vitality, abundant mental energy, and unwavering willpower.
Grateful for Encouragement and Support
Without the devoted care of my family, friends, medical staff, and especially my husband, I simply could not have survived the past few years. Sometimes, I felt sad because of my illness, feeling like I couldn't help and was only a burden to my husband, son, and daughter-in-law. But I know they have always love me, no matter what I am like. Nevertheless, words alone cannot express my gratitude to them. In fact, their faith in the Lord, their love, and their joy have truly given me immense strength. I would like to dedicate a prayer I read, the gist of which is as follows, to them and to caregivers worldwide:
Heavenly Father, please grant your servants divine patience and emotional resilience. When overwhelmed, remind us that we need not be sources of strength, but simply vessels through which your power flows. Grant us discernment and wisdom. In moments of silence, grant our hearts rest, and may your peace guard us in the new year. In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen!
In the new year, whatever we face, let us remember that God has His plan and purpose for our lives. "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." (Jeremiah 29:11). "But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." (Isaiah 40:31)
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