Tuesday, August 9, 2016

The Impact of Unresolved Trauma on Relationships

Physicians use the word “trauma” to describe a serious injury to the physical body resulting from a sudden impact, such as an accident or a violent act. But you can also suffer emotional trauma, which can cause an equally painful wound to your sense of self as a whole, coherent being. Just like a wound to your physical body, emotional injuries also require care and attention so that you may heal.

When this trauma is left unresolved and your experience of yourself is one of not being whole—of somehow being broken—you are likely to bring the footprints of this to your relationships. To have healthy relationships, you must first have a healthy sense of your own being and place in the world.

Let’s take a brief look at trauma, its origins and symptoms, and then how this may affect your relationships.

Origins and Effects of Emotional Trauma
Emotional injuries result from any experience in which one feels that his or her life or well-being is endangered. These experiences might include the shaming of a young person by a parent or teacher, the molestation or beating of a child, the loss of a job or a divorce, a sudden death or life-changing accident, or being sent to war.

Whether the trauma occurred in childhood or adulthood, it changes your experience of yourself and your world. If you were young when the trauma occurred, you will likely have more scars, because you were more vulnerable and had fewer coping skills.

Our human instinct is to protect ourselves and we do that, often, by finding ways to cut ourselves off, through denial that we have been hurt, dissociation from the painful event, or repression of the memory of the trauma. The symptoms of unresolved trauma may include, among many others, addictive behaviors, an inability to deal with conflict, anxiety, confusion, depression or an innate belief that we have no value.

The Impact on Relationships
Living with unresolved wounds and bringing all the resulting behaviors to your relationships is clearly not conducive to healthy, happy intimacy.

When your emotional health has been compromised and you soldier on through life, “sucking it up,” without resolving the trauma that has occurred, the wounds will continue to fester, primarily in how you perceive and treat yourself—and then spilling into your relationships with significant others.

When the trauma remains unresolved, there will likely be frequent triggers that cause an emotional response—behaviors on the part of others that unintentionally act as cues or reminders of the original trauma. For example, if you had parents who were emotionally distant or physically absent when you were a child and you felt abandoned, when your spouse comes home late from work you may feel powerless and rejected.

Your spouse (or your friend, relative or colleague) may have only your highest good in mind, but when you see life through your scars, you experience attacks where none are intended. Likewise, when you see yourself as unworthy, you may not effectively express and preserve your worth in relationships.

The unresolved trauma is the filter through which you see the world and all your relationships.

It happened to me. I had many childhood traumatic experiences including that of being rejected by my grandmother as a girl. After I was born, grandma told my Dad, "Two girls in a row? If you want a son, you'd better go elsewhere."

That toxic suggestion enabled my Dad to start an affair. When I was one year old, my Mom found out about Dad's mistress who just gave birth to a son. Growing up, I thought I was not worthy of love because I was a girl. I studied hard and behaved well to seek approval. As an adult, I carried my Mom's deep hurt and betrayal to the point that I was afraid to trust my husband. Always protecting myself, I put on a hard shell of being "competent and self-reliant," and almost destroyed my marriage and family.

Resolving the Unresolved
If you have unresolved trauma in your life, you are certainly not alone. Here are some ways to begin to address and heal the trauma and change the effect it has upon your life and relationships:

Understand trauma and its effects. Read books about recovering from trauma. Talk with a therapist to see what behaviors in your life may be related to an early traumatic event, whether you remember the specifics of an event or not.

Share your story. Write about your experiences, from the past and present, in a journal. Or ask a trusted friend or counselor to listen and bear witness as you share what happened. From telling your story, you may discover the connections between what’s happening now in your life and what you carry with you from the past.

I thought I could prove my worthiness by working hard. However, I found that, no matter how much I have achieved, I could not get rid of my shame and guilt of being a girl who caused problems for my parents. As a new believer, God used a Bible verse, "So God created man in His own image; in the image of God He created him; male and female He created them" (Genesis 1:27) to heal me. Now I know I am equally worthy as an image bearer of God.

Develop witness consciousness. Begin to notice all the thoughts and feelings that arise from the position of an observer. In your relationships, start to be aware when “this isn’t that.” Sometimes a spouse coming home late from work is just that. Notice when you are triggered and all the “self-talk” that comes along with that.

Share the trigger. When you begin to notice that you are triggered, and what you are feeling may not be the truth of the present moment, say “I feel triggered (by what you said or did).” This can be a great way of stepping outside of the emotional response, naming it, and talking about what happened without any blame.

I thought my past history would not hurt me as long as I forget about the hurt from my family of origin. But I was wrong. When I was triggered, all in a sudden, I would automatically reverted back to my old self-protective mechanism. To help James to help me, I started to share my triggers so that he could have a chance to understand, accept and support me.

But first, I have to learn to slow down, reflect, and take care of my own emotions.

Develop emotional resilience. Experience your feelings, rather than pushing them away—notice them and name them. Feel the sadness. Feel the anger. Become aware of where the feeling is in your body—in your throat? In your heart? Your emotions then can serve you as information guides moving you towards healing.

Learn new ways of self-soothing. Healing entails having the tools to soothe and comfort yourself. What soothes you? Music? Journaling? A hot water bottle? A warm bath? Exercise? Develop new self-caring behaviors. All this self-loving will spill over into your relationships.

Consider the spiritual dimension. Begin to see your life as part of a bigger picture—as a journey. It’s an empowering way to see your story in a new light and get a new perspective on the pain you’ve been through. Can you find a hidden gift in that experience: are you stronger, more alive, more compassionate as a result?

By the grace of God, James and I have created a grace environment to support each other. It is wonderful to live in a safe zone with safe people saved by grace. We are spreading the words of how this applies to families and faith communities.

Take time. All the time you need. We are not made the same, and we all heal in our own way, our own time. If the process becomes too intense, slow it down. Take a break. Get support.

The healing of trauma, just like the healing of a broken arm, is essential to a healthy, functional life. Moving towards a healed life and realigning with your own wholeness brings you more fully into the present, making room for connection, intimacy, and freedom.

Being saved by Jesus means I am freed from bondage of sin and death. With my new identity as a child of God, I no longer have to subject myself to those old dysfunctional rules. Now every day, moment by moment, I gratefully hold onto this truth of being a new creation in Christ.

"Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new." (2 Corinthians 5:17)

Author's content used under license, © Claire Communications

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